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Thursday, 19 September 2019

What Lies Beneath: Childhood behaviour

What Lies Beneath: Childhood behaviour

While working on my book The Road To Mental Wellness, I got to thinking about how far the mental health community has come. The section I am working on is talking about when I was a kid. Let me tell ya, back in the 80's mental illness was a taboo subject and making jokes about those with a mental health condition was as normal as pouring your first-morning coffee.

Just as I have struggled with mental illness the majority of my adult life, my childhood was packed full of struggle. It was a different time then, where would one turn when they knew that they would become the instant target of bullying had they reviled the fire burning deep within? The answer is a simple one, Nowhere!

One thing I've learnt over the years is that some children, I fit in this category of some children, act out in anger when they have some underlying psychological pain. This usually occurs because they are either emotionally underdeveloped and have difficulties regulating their behaviours, or they have some other inlying issue at the heart of the matter.

Reasons children may act out

I was a behavioural child, but I was also kind and compassionate. I had outbursts and often they were physical in nature but I acted out on the objects around me, never people.  The distinction between taking out my pain on objects and not people is or should have been a key piece of the puzzle that no one picked up on.

So then, why is this specific behaviour key to solving my many vocal and physical outbursts? The answer lies within where I chose to express my frustration and where I placed my aggression. To the trained observer, they can see that this behaviour is the result of far more than what meets the eye.

An individual well versed in the ways of all things behavioural related would know that all behaviour happens for a reason and the actual behaviour being witnessed can't always be taken at face value. Knowing this, a question naturally springs to mind. What is really going on here? Armed with the knowledge that I only hit objects, one can safely assume that  I was not violent by nature. So then, what could it be?

Understanding children's behaviour (great video)

In my case, I have always had long periods of sadness and loneliness, it is very likely that my major depression started early. Unfortunately, at that time, I had no skills sets to deal with this deep-seated melancholy.

Lacking the proper tools to identify and manage depression, I became angry, aggression was my only way of coping and as a result, I took out my feelings on inanimate objects. Sadly, the adults that surrounded me were also ill-equipped to see what was really going on. That acting based on what they were seeing, an aggressive child that needs to be punished for acting out.

So there you have it, a sad little fella that was punished for the behaviour that depression produced, proving that our perception isn't always reality. I can't help but wonder where I would be today if someone would have looked a little deeper.

Please, understand that there is a story behind that little child's behaviour, the one we all know who seems to be struggling with mood regulation. So be kind and get to the bottom of what is really taking place. Think of the impact you could have.

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Saturday, 14 September 2019

PTSD: Tested in real-time

PTSD: Tested in real-time

In three days it will be exactly one year since I was forced off of work due to mental illness. If you take the time to read through my blog site, you will undoubtedly start to see how long and difficult The Road To Mental Wellness can be. I hope that you can also see that despite the long and arduous battle, it is, without question worth the struggle to keep moving forward.

You know, PTSD is a hell of a thing, the nightmares replaying the most horrific scenes in my head while I attempt to sleep can write off the rest of the night and even the days to follow. Fear of leaving my home, my mental made prison can really keep me in a perpetual loop of avoidance. I see potential emergencies lurking around every corner.

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So, after all this time making myself scarce, sometimes for a week or two at a time,  only braving the world to see the people I am closest to or to sit down a discuss mental illness with other suffers, I decided to volunteer my time to help a political candidate in their bid for office in the federal election. 

I decided this because I need to start to gauge my tolerance in what is essentially a work environment, I felt honoured to be asked to help. and I thought, "What  a pressure-free way of testing the waters". This prospect excited me because of all I want to is move on with my life and get to a point where I can manage well enough to walk among the working world on a regular basis. 

Sadly, this social integration experiment is not going as well as I had hoped. Ever since I've started,  my startle response is at a constant high and I'm overwhelmed by the exposure to others bustling about. Overly loud vehicles rumbling by, just outside the office door, tear my already dwindled concentration away from what I am doing and my most triggering thing of all, sirens, lots of sirens. There is so much constant stimulation that I tire so quickly.

How to reduce stress in the workplace

At the end of most days, I am left in such a state of hypervigilance that I remain awake most of the night; this only compounds everything I have mentioned above when the next day rolls around.

My saving grace? The fact that I am a volunteer, I can do as little or as much as I can tolerate, I take full advantage of that flexibility. But, we all know that the working work demands one to be on all of the time, something that I simply cannot do. Testing out my PTSD symptoms in this voluntary environment has taught me that.

I will get there though, I will persevere and I will win the day... You can too, just keep working towards a solution that works so you can be productive and feel like your winning your mental disorder war.

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